Goddess in the Gap
RM Allen, author of NH Goddess Chronicles series
I have been absent from this blog for a while. Why? You know when you wish for something really big and then you get it? Wow! Fantastic! Orgasmagical! But it also can throw you off a bit as you try to catch up to your new life. In order to stay calm, I am deliberately waiting in the gap, resting peacefully and observing, until the various aspects of my new life begin to shift together naturally. These various new aspects include getting married, changing my job to online & part-time, and committing to live in two places in two different states. Three biggies all at once!! Oh, and did I mention riding the menopause merry-go-round?
So, I wait, checking in every once in a while, and watching the signs. Here is a recent dream: “I put my hand to my mouth and take it away, and in my palm is my tongue. I am alarmed. I look in the mirror and see that I have another very thin and shiny tongue growing already, (like when you lose a toenail), and I think that is great!” This dream certainly seems telling to me.
It is January again so I am working on my annual word-of-the-year, which is a repeat of my word from last year: Gracious. I have never done a repeat word, but I feel that there is more work for me to do on Gracious. Last year I approached it from a “non-violent communication” aspect. This year I am working a different angle as I wait in the gap between single and married mindset, full-time employment and free-lance lifestyle, mother and crone. I think I am studying Gracious this year as a function of time, a patience with imperfection.
I promise you I will be back on regular schedule soon, whatever that new schedule may manifest as. I have a whole bunch of ideas thrown into the crock-pot and they are stewing and will be ready in time. What fun!
So, my goddess sisters, what was the wish that I wished for and got? For an entire year a while back I asked my friends the grandmother-trees to send me a “healthy, green, and spiritual superstar” to be my partner in life. I almost didn’t recognize him because he was packaged differently than I assumed, and I already had known him casually for years. But, how could I have missed him, when the license plate on his car reads “ Zeus”?
God/dess is really a state of mind!
Mrs. Zeus……… aka The Green Goddess of New Hampshire (and now Maine too)